The holidays are difficult for individuals with eating issues. There's an abundance of food, and it's often food that we don't eat at other times of the year. This can create some big time anxiety.
And then combine this with loss and grief for individuals who have lost loved ones this year. It is the first round of holidays without their loved one. There may be many reminders of the person they lost, and sadness that they aren't able to share these moments.
If you are struggling with your eating while also experiencing loss and grief, it's crucial (and absolutely not selfish) that you take care of yourself. This may mean skipping certain gatherings this year or giving yourself permission to leave early. It's essential that you continue to nourish your body with food, even if you don't feel like eating. Ask for support with this if you need it. Friends and family can eat meals with you. Your dietitian can help you come up with menu plans that meet your body's needs.
Be gentle with yourself. Allow yourself to feel whatever emotions come up, both the positive and negative ones. You are strong. You can do this. You're not alone.