If you have an eating disorder and tell yourself that everything’s fine, your risk meeter is broken. I’m not trying to be harsh or shame you. I care enough to be brutally honest.
Restricting food, bingeing, purging, taking diet pills, overexercising, using laxatives – these all constitute risk. You might feel fine right now, and you probably are, until you’re not.
Eating disorders have the highest mortality rate of any mental illness. Not only are you risking your health (and your life), you are risking everything else too. You are risking losing your family, friends and job. It’s hard to be connected to somebody who is ill, in denial, and/or refuses to get help.
Perhaps you don’t know who you are without your eating disorder. Of course this is scary. But continuing to live with it is scary too. It’s much less risky to get help. It might not be pleasant, but it will change your life.
The risk of not getting help is much higher than this risk of recovering, despite what the fear center in your brain (the amygdala where the ED lives) is telling you.